Approaching the weekend before the biggest movie of the year for squealing teenage girls, I feel as though I must confess something.
I’m 35 and I love the “Twilight” series. I love Robert Pattinson as Edward Cullen. I am in the camp of Edward, not the lair of Jacob. The inner teenager in me swoons when Pattinson is on TV.
And I hate it. I guess I’m at that age when I know I should be more mature, shouldn’t swoon at movie stars and made-up characters, but the whole Twilight phenomenon is easier to catch than H1N1.
I know plenty of women who’ve gotten sucked into this romantic teen fiction. Men have hence been ruined for them, because no real man can live up to Stephanie Myer’s Edward. I didn’t expect to be among that camp. But now, Pattinson IS Edward, and my mind is having a hard time untangling the two. It’s like I’m 13 again.
I borrowed the first book on a whim, looking for something to read. I consumed it in 12 hours. During the next two months, I devoured the other three books, staying up past my bedtime for nights on end to enter the World of the Cullens.
But me? How did this happen to ME?
See, I thought I was way too tough for this. I thought I was grizzled and wizened. I thought working in the newspaper industry, as well as being a product of the grungy 90s and being an all-around sarcastic, surly girl, killed all my girly fantasies of being swept off my feet and into the arms of a One True Love.
Suffice it to say it hasn’t happened yet — that whole swept off my feet thing — but dang it if these books didn’t defrost my Romance Sensors.
Plus, I was an English major! I minored in Shakespeare! I shouldn’t be reading this, much less enjoying it as much as I did!
But sometimes, you have to suspend your intellect and go with what feels right.
The “Twilight” books are over-the-top, Gothic, read-in-one-night romances featuring the bad guy who’s really a prince. Perfect! That’s what all us girls want. The bad guy who’s crazy about us and only us, the guy that only we can understand, the one who does something unforgivable but can only truly be forgiven by us.
I’ll be the first to admit that women don’t make sense.
And I’ll also admit, as my friend and co-worker Jennifer Chancellor just pointed out, that Edward and Bella’s relationship is possibly unhealthier than Romeo and Juliet’s. We shouldn’t try to emulate those two.
But it’s fun to live in this land of make-believe for a moment or two, even if I know it means I’m not a grown-up. I’m actually quite happy about that.
I won’t be going to see “Twilight: New Moon” the week it comes out. I may be immature, but I’m too old to tolerate tittering girls for nearly two hours. I’ll go during a matinee, when the movie is about three weeks old. And I’ll probably enjoy every minute of it.
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